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her breasts were wound tight, they had already begun turning purple. i squeezed them with my hands, sucked on her nipple,
i could feel them throbbing in my mouth. i played with them, bounced them around, until they turned a dark shade of maroon.
i untied her breasts then squeezed her tightly against my bare chest. holding her in my arms, she felt so fragile. her
breathing was sighs, and i caressed her naked back, while nibbling on the back of her neck. it was moments like these i treasured
the most; it was when our love penetrated the energy waves between us. No, we had never spoken it out loud, but the intensity
and clarity of it almost made me collapse into tears. somehow, it was more romantic like this.
i stood up, picked her up into my arms, and carried her into my bedroom. her head lay against my shoulder, and i could
feel her hair against my cheek. i laid her down on the bed gently, her golden curls fell around her face. she lay there,
smiling at me, her eyes glazed with emotion for me.
i held myself over her naked body, and slowly kissed her everywhere. her skin was soft like velvet, it was flushed and
trembling inside. i knew she desired me. i slowly caressed her body with my hands – my rough, callused , working
man hands. her skin felt beautifully everywhere.
i continued to cherish this skin of hers, paying attention to her breathing. i spread her legs apart and tried to prove
my worthiness to her. i took her into my mouth, i moved my tongue through her folds and savored the taste of her in my mouth.
her breathing became more rapid, and i could tell i was pleasing her. oh, to please her, i did not feel worthy. she
was beautiful and young, and i, a deranged outcast. here i was, given the honour to rest my head between her legs, a triumph.
her whole body shook, and i made sure i didnt stop until i tasted three of her orgasms. i still didnt feel worthy, but
i knew she wanted me inside her, inside
i pushed my body back up, and kissed up her stomach as i made my way back up to her face. she looked up at me in exasperation,
exhilaration, love. i kissed her mouth and managed my way inside her.
her body welcomed me in warmth, the sound escaping her mouth tugged at my heart. i looked into her eyes as we became
one being, like we always were, our bodies were the final touch of our completion. i saw many things there, vulnerability,
trust, pain, past heartbreaks, past betrayal, a sense of completion, love, generosity, sensitivity, and the feeling that she
was looking directly through me. our eyes formed a circle of vision, we were whole.
i held her as i came in and out of her, staring deep into those eyes, feeling as though any second i would burst into
tears or explode into pieces with her. i went inside her deeper, the nirvana increasing, her voice gaining octaves, her eyes
growing wider. her breasts held against me tight, our eyes locked, except when id get in as deep as i could go and she went
cross-eyed, while she came all over me.
i picked up my speed, feeling unable to stop myself, i couldnt resist her. i needed more of her, i was not inside her
deep enough. i didnt want to come out, just to keep thrusting. i glared into her eyes and i went faster. her screams started
to penetrate right through me, i felt them vibrate straight through my soul. she could barely keep her eyes open now, and
i managed to get myself together enough to really give her what she wanted. i started pounding into her, as hard as i could,
as deep as i could, holding her naked, wet body close to mine. i continued, savoring her, until my body started to tingle,
my vision went blurry, i started seeing spots, my body went numb for a split instant right before a wave of euphoria ran through
me, and i felt myself explode deep inside her. i could feel myself spreading throughout her body, which was as much a part
of mine. at this moment i was not aware of any distinction between us.
i laid there inside her, staring into her eyes. her eyes showed me more vulnerability, more trust, satisfaction, completion,
and desperate undying love. our bodies were enwrapped together, our sweat was mingled into a singular compound, we were one
creature, with the same DNA, same life, same emotion, same goal, same second, same life. i kissed her mouth, and squeezed
her even tighter. there was nothing in the world worth destroying this moment. there was nothing else in the world existing.
i finally managed to pull myself out of her, and laid down next to her. she has this pleasant hint of a smile as she
looked at me. she caressed my face with the warmth of the mother of the world. i had never felt more comforted, more alive.
i wrapped my arm around her and held her there, as our compound of sweat slowly evaporated off of us and entranced the energies
we created in the air. i felt like a child, like i had been reborn, reborn into this being, me and her, as one.
so this was love, for the first time in my life i understood all the hype. fairytales made sense. it took me a while,
but i found her. i knew i loved her, i was pretty sure she loved me, i had hoped more than anything she loved me in return.
although i did not feel worthy. if she did love me, i was not sure why, there was no way she could possibly love me. no,
i pleased her, that was all. at this thought i kissed her forehead and stood up out of bed to go grab the cigarettes i had
left in the other room. i knew shed want one too.
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