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I have reached this point realizing there is not much more i can do. i've experienced it all already & im not
legally ready to experience more. It kills me that a piece of paper decides my fate. And not more than one, for
that matter. One for every ambition & dream i have. The only thing stopping me is a piece of paper.
And its so frusterating at times. I have seen the the unspeakable, i've heard the unthinkable, and ive thought the unimaginable.
Ive done the unstoppable. Im untamable. A non-conformist. Im so many un's and non's, im regected from every
single societal label. A complete and true freak. of nature. Im so many things and so much more. But
a piece of paper allows people to only take me half-seriously, if even that. Ive learned a lot in these years; ive kept
my mind open, considering all the possibilities & analyzing the effect and consequence. Ive been studying human
emotion, interaction, reaction, and psyche since ive been able to even minutly grasp the concept. Perhaps even before
that. Before my time, my age, my life & even myself. so many
ideas, contradictions, loopholes, and gaps in the world of today. Too much to even think about. i struggle to
stick to one thing but one thing always leads to another. Too much is never really enough. All that really matters
is what you believe matters. All that you are is what you believe you are, who can tell you different? nobody
knows you better than you know yourself. We're constantly changing, every second. I have changed since i first
started writing this. Nobody can keep up with you. Only you know what goes on inside your head. And thats
all you have that really real. Thats all you REALLY have to hold on to. Everything else eventually disappears,
decays and you're left with nothing. If there's only one thing i have learned, it is that human emotion is everything,
and the only thing that really matters.
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