i never know should i stay or should i go? should i be excited to leave or worried to be gone? should i let u leave should i let u love me? should i refuse to love u? a life as malicious as this shuld come in fruity flavours not bitter tastes. i dream a little dream and silently scream as darkness takes me in. the conspiracy of this lifetime is marvelous and overwhelming. i think i woke up screaming. i had a dream i was happy. i had a dream u still loved me. but we will never be. life is a matter of time we waste instead of taste the falsification. i wanna play a game say the same story again. will u still love me? will u remember me afer i die? i struggle to see but omehow my night vision has been turned off by some vaguely familiar hand. i wish i had more time to cry, time to say im sorry, time to say something or other. i just called to say i love u. i use too often and i drink too much. jack daniels in a wine glass to settle the confusion. i cannot live as u say i shall. i cannot speak at all. too charlatan to speak of truth. too insane to be believed. the world is fake, its all a mistake. society is a conspiracy. too hateful to speak of love. too compassionate to speak of hate. i shall not speak at all. i leave by sayin life spelled backwards is efil.

lost in sin

i always suspected

time

a creep, a weirdo